Help me please

[Lovingmummy1991]

During labour the midwife had her hands up me very savagely and it left swelling on my baby’s head, there was also a scratch on her she done herself when we left that hospital; a worker came round asked what the marks were i hadnt even thought about them they’ve always been there they went and asked LGI they said no record of marks, they told me I had to take her to a medical or shed ring the police so we went 3 days i. Hospital Told we could go home ig scans are clear they were but they made us leave with grandparents next day took us to court said she had to be fostered this made us relapse they came and did a parenting assessment for my session they said I didn’t love my baby as I’d been a previous victim of Domestic Violence my ex trafficked me out but she asked if Bambis dad resented me for that wtf they got me in such a state I was sobbing and begged them to stop the session she didn’t they then left and I was suicidal they traumatised me tjat much I then didnt leav tje house fot 8 weeks I couldn’t no medical professionals coild say we did or didnt do it just decided it was us on my life it was done during birth shes now been adopted out they didn’t even let us finish our baby steps anti natal class they rang when we had contact and was asking about an adoption medical which ruined my time with her now we have final farewell next week an hour and a half!!! But I’m now in rehab and we’re 8 weeks clean but she’s been adopted out where do I go?! The NHS didnt record any of these marks properly just said no no marks wtf I’ve lost havent I there’s no way out is there ? Please this has broken me they assessed me all along anf said yeah CIN then 11 days old this happened wtf ?????